On My Mind

 

I don’t want to pretend to be someone that I’m not.  I don’t want to hide my emotions or make it seem as though I live some perfect life.  Yet, I created this blog to help others improve their lives.   I want to serve as a guide to others and show them how to be their happiest and truest selves.  To teach others how to count their blessings and really live life to its greatest potential.  But every life has its own series of ups and downs.  We all have our own struggles that we face.  Instead of covering these challenges up, I think it is important to sometimes share them with others so that they too can relate and better understand how to deal with the difficult experiences that face themselves.  So today, I’m just thinking out loud.

I’m feeling lost lately.  So badly do I crave happiness, laughter, peace, and yet I can’t seem to calm my mind.  I wish I had more control over my thoughts.  So many different things run across my mind all at once.  It’s chaos.

I think about how lonely I feel these days, yearning for someone to talk to and spend quality time with.  I think about how summer is drifting away.  These weeks are much too short.  I feel scared and overwhelmed when I try to face the fact that in less than a month I will be back in school with a crazy schedule and a heavy work load.  It just seems like too much to handle.

That’s another problem I have right now.  I too often find myself afraid to fail, afraid to overcome obstacles.  And because of this, I hold myself back.  For how does one improve if they are not willing enough to try?  And on top of that I lack confidence.  I guess I just crave perfection.

But in these hard times I try to step back and count my blessings. I have so much to be grateful for, and I think that’s really what keeps me going through it all.  I have grown so passionate about dance and yoga.  It is in these gifts where I can let myself go and find my inner peace.  I have a caring and supportive family that I will forever hold close to my heart, regardless of how far they may be.  I have my best companion, my dog Jake, who never fails to brighten my day.  And the list just goes on and on.  Life is full of blessings that are much more abundant than the amount of difficulties or disappointments.

And so my friends, I end this post today with hope for a brighter future.  Always hold your head high.  It is amazing what a little positivity in your life will do.  But at the same time, realize deeply that you are human and you are allowed to feel whatever way you feel right now.  Always be thankful for what you have and take time to acknowledge these things each and every day of your life.  If you really try, I have faith that you can find a state of inner peace and happiness.  “Sometimes you just need to let go and see what happens.”

Thank you for taking the time to read today’s post.  I now invite you to share anything that may be on your mind in the comments below, so that you can also have a chance to be heard and understood.  Maybe you would rather share something or someone you are grateful for in your life.  Either way I look forward to reading your response! 

Namaste.

Kristen